I found the session extremely enjoyable. When it took hold I felt a glowing warmth in and around my heart, and my entire body felt as though it were full of moving, gelatinous warmth. Very pleasant.

The primary realization that I came to during the session was that most of my problem areas (depression, health, job) have to do with cutting off the flow of energy that is available to me on Adam. My feeling, with that energy moving through me, was that if I could allow that movement to occur, and allow that movement to direct me (like the wind blowing a sail), my life would work itself out quite naturally and without too many problems. A large concern of mine has been what other people might think of me -- and with that energy moving in me I found that it didn't matter what other people thought.

One image that stayed with me and which I felt often during the session was the feeling of a golden fountain flowing through my heart -- almost an actual feeling.

Another image was that of being in the center of a sphere, breathing, and feeling myself in the center of hundreds of rays that formed a star with me in the center. Along with this was the feeling that if I could stay in the center of that sphere, as the center of the star, that I would be directed and moved in the correct dimensions.

I realized places where I stop myself from giving and receiving in relationships. I related the feeling I had during the session to an experience I had when I was an infant, and I was attended by a beautiful golden light while I was crawling in a bean patch. I was able to see that my mother loved me a great deal -- and I contacted a memory of when she was holding me as an infant, something I had lost.

Afterwards, one of the most useful revelations from this session (so far) has been that I notice that I do not run very much "Father" energy -- and I characterize this as energy of authority, purpose, and assurance.

My second session with Adam was a solo -- I took it without a guide. One of the issues that I wanted to work on was being more comfortable with being myself. I made arrangements with a friend to come four and a half hours into the session.

I went into an amazing vision, not really a vision, because it was more intense -- it was more an experience. I felt as though I were in a chamber with walls of light and air in the shape of a pyramid. And everyone I had ever known (this life, past lives, future lives) was there. I felt all of them, some more than others (experienced as brighter lights amongst an assemblage of light beings). I felt overwhelmed with love. I felt the presence of my mother (dead for three years) and I talked with her about not loving each other in the past, so lees do it now. The two of us sent love to various other people, including the brother of a close friend, and my father.

As before, the journey was extremely pleasurable physically -- warmth and movement of energy all through my body. As before, all of the issues that I brought to work on seemed very easily resolved. Many of the realizations I had centered around love.

In particular I realized that it is "right" for me and my partner to love one another. I realized that I want to bring this love experienced during Adam to my life. I realized that I can love people whether I'm with them or not.

One issue I worked on was being more joyful. I realized that all I have to do was to be more joyful -- and it seemed crystal clear how to do that -- simply be it. It was the same for vital energy -- all I had to do was have it, to want it.

I worked extensively on blocks to creativity. They seemed to be centered in the area of my Hara (two times I asked to be shown where the block came from). I received three images, one of being a rock with a vein of something else in the area where my stomach (hara) is, one of being tortured in the inquisition in Southern France (this also had to do with something I had written), and the third was of something Egyptian.

At one point I took a shamanic journey into the underworld. I ended up in a large grove of oak trees. I buried four eight-sided crystals, one in each corner. I then stood in the center with my two helpers, a cat and an eagle, and I danced. There were many people dancing with me, leaping, with warrior energy, and I had a sense that my (male) guide was there dancing with me.

After that I walked on a trail with my animals until we came to a section of run-down warehouses where I had been before, both during lucid dreaming and during shamanic journeys. I went partly with the intention of finding what was there for me. I saw a little boy running. I realized that he was a part of me, and the space became brighter. I saw a little girl, and now she became a part of me. And then five different friends came up and became part, of, me, and the whole space was no longer a run-down warehouse but was full of light. I saw a little baby and I said, "Come here, little friend. Come here! I love you!" Then the little boy was in my heart.

I've noticed several differences in my behavior since the trip. I no longer feel fearful around people or intimidated. I feel much more sure of myself. In general I feel less in a hurry. I notice a growing resolve in me of wanting to share with others, and a resolve of wanting to be involved with people and to share my writing and music.